What really struck me was that she said yelling at people makes them feel more accepted. It sounds weird at first, but if you think about it, it's so true.
I was actually yelling at people yesterday in particular because it was loud. I didn't mean to, it just happened. But hey, if it helps me make friends, then I guess that's good...?
But I thought I was actually being friendly! I want to make friends of course, and I realize that the way to do that is by being friendly.
So I'm not as friendly as I thought. But I guess I should just be myself. I'm trying to turn "myself" into a better, nicer, friendlier person, not be fake and pretend to be friendly. But it's really tough. Through this process, I'm beginning to wonder who I am. Makeup and insecurities aside, who AM I? Am I actually a nice person, or is that all fake? At home, I snap at people and I'm pretty sarcastic. That used to be who I was at all times. But now, I'm friendly and optimistic everywhere else, and sarcastic and pessimistic at home.
I don't know which I am anymore. I like to think I'm friendly and nice, but am I really?
They say "just be yourself," but who is that?